First let me start by saying that the opinions and thoughts represented in this blog post are mine alone. In no way am I able to speak about the experiences, opinions, and thoughts of my entire race and gender….I wouldn’t even want to try. With that being said. It seems that more times than not, I as an African American have been asked to carry the torch, and trek down the rabbit hole alone. At times I feel this is necessary…necessary in building my faith, and nurturing my relationship with God and others. Sometimes I think there are days or seasons when we’re called to walk alone, with Jesus…descending in to the rabbit hole.
Ideally, we would all love to stand united and go down the hole with our brothers and sisters, however what if there comes a time when we must stand alone with God, staring heartbreak, injustice, oppression and death in the face. As I said before there have been several times in my life where I’ve had to walk alone with only Jesus by my side into something unknown, into something hard. This is precisely the reason that it’s frustrating to me when I hear people of privilege continuously speaking about how they can’t walk alone, how they need people to come along side them…of course this is absolutely true, but my fear is at that those in power will not choose to stand and fight for what’s right unless they have a brother or sister standing by their side.
Sometimes during times of hardship and oppression people aren’t always available to walk with you in the rabbit hole. This doesn’t mean you can stop walking. There are times when to stop walking equals death, not necessarily a physically death, but possibly a spiritual death. Its in these times we have to keep walking even if that means walking alone.
When God said to Jonah, and Jonah only “arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it, for evil has come up before me.” Jonah 1:2 God didn’t say wait for your brothers and sisters to come along side you to provide encouragement and strength he simply said go. When there is a churning deep inside of you to go deeper in the rabbit hole than ever before, and there’s no one there who dares go with you; it is time to walk alone, with Jesus down the rabbit hole. We can’t afford to wait until we feel supported and encouraged. The support and encouragement often comes when we are journeying in the depths of the rabbit hole.
“Faith is taking the first step even when you can’t see the whole staircase. If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.